I could not decide whether this experience in my 34 years of life was appropriate for a blog and public viewing. Then, I decided I had nothing to hide and this is an event a number of women have experienced and even fewer under the age of 40. So, why not put it in writing.
By the beginning of the new year 2011 (God willing I am still alive and well) I will be wombless. H-day (hysterectomy day) will be my way of celebrating the coming year with hopefully a dear friend and my mother by side sequestered in bed and on pain killers. This is definately not the ideal for the masses.
I had been hoping for this procedure for the longest time but when the doctor beat me to the suggestion, I was very elated. Elated because I thought no one would want to do this to someone at my age. I am aware that most women would think I am mad for being happy about a hysterectomy as a solution. However, what the normal-womb-women do not realize is that God made some of us different and a procedure so drastic can be a very welcomed saviour.
At this point, I am busy getting ready. There are a number of preparations to do as it will be a 6-weeks recovery period. Some of the preparation includes paperwork to secure my job, finding as much information about the procedure (including pictures online), and reviewing supportive websites such as Hystersisters that gives a more personal view on what to expect before and after H-day. My procedure is expected to be the total hysterectomy as shown in the diagram above. (I will not be posting any real live pictures. If you are curious take a peek at google images)
Besides the other preparation, the first thing that came to mind is that I need to have really reliable supports. Someone who would not just dump me and run (flash back of an early experience this year). My dearest friend offered to come and lend a helping hand at which I gladly say yes. She has been my sounding board and I hers. So, it is very fitting that God will allow her by my side.
She had ask me a couple of questions which I had already addressed and resolved with myself and will explore leading up to H-day: How will this affect meeting someone who wants children? How do I feel about this very final procedure? My own questions include: Will I have any regrets? Will this affect my view of myself as a woman? Will it be a big deal that the possibility of giving birth will end permanently?
If anyone has been through or are preparing for their own H-day, feel free to add your comments.