In the past few years, I have come to a conclusion that there is a certain facade to Christianity that will never go away because we are all fallible. By being fallible, we want to present to the world something less distasteful; so, we invent the appearance of perfection. Every church presents smoke and mirrors and so do the members; however, once you clear the air then the reality of just how corruptible we are is very clear and no one likes what s/he sees. I guess this is one reason why we should be exceedingly thankful is that God forgives completely.
I give no illusions that I DO identify with the Christians who admit to making egregious mistakes. I am in no way politically or Christianly correct (a good number of my posts highlight that which is the point of my blog). The ability to admit to being corrupted has somehow made me crave for God more than ever. The moment I admitted to being a bad Christian was the moment I recognized how much Jesus’ perfection is very necessary. I started learning from my mistakes and I can admit that I had to repeat them a few times before I got it. However, here is the kicker-those past mistakes are still a present struggle. Struggles that I will never deny at least to myself and God.
Catholicism adopted the issue of the 7 deadly sins: wrath, greed, sloth, pride, lust, envy, and gluttony. I am sure there are more that do not fall into either of those categories and each person has been touched and struggles with at least 2 of those. A recent post from another blog condemned a mega church pastor who defended a fellow mega church pastor who committed sexual crimes against underaged young men in his church. The issue of forgiveness came up. The pastor made a point to say that the church members should support their pastor just as he supported his church members who had made mistakes in their lives. That view gave me something to think about. In reality, if that sexually deviant man was my pastor, I would condemn him and walk away from that church. I would immediately have said he should have known better. Something to think about is that those are the same words atheist and agnostics say when us professed Christians screw up royally.
My only comment on that issue is that forgiveness is an act that requires divine intervention in order to truly forgive someone of certain sins. ‘We should know better!’ Shouldn’t we? Afterall, we are the chosen with a close connection to God. We understand the whole issue of Christ dying etc etc. So why do we still struggle and pretend that we don’t? How is it more acceptable to condemn someone versus admitting that we have our own shit in a closet too? There is something about religion (and money) that breeds a holier-than-thou attitude.
As for me and my sinful nature, I like talking about mine and others’ struggles. I can assume that most Christians are hesitant to share, will publicly condemn, but they will certainly think about the things I blog about and so much more. It gives a weird sense of reality and being grounded that Christ took a couple nails, thorns, and sword for my dirty laundry. It makes Christianity very real to me. It gives me a reason to read the Bible and seek God’s answers.